I don’t even know where to begin today….
I think the best place to start is to retract, on some level, my previous new year’s post (go ahead – read it here if you haven’t already – Living 2015 ) It was soft. It sounded….squishy. My voice is in there, somewhere, but it was way, WAY too nice. Here is the thing – all of my intentions are great for me. They are. But where is the challenge, the inspiration, the kick in the ass that I really want to give? Not in that post. Not for myself and not for you. So I am giving myself a re-do.
Here is what I really want to say:
IT IS TIME TO WAKE THE EFF UP AND FIGHT LIKE HELL FOR YOURSELF AND OTHERS!
Let me see if I can pull this together for you…
Stuart Scott was a familiar voice to me since ESPN is basically on permanent play around here, and I never gave him much thought until last year at the ESPY awards. It was a powerful speech made even more so because it hit so close to home. And so so SO sadly I didn’t think about him much again until the news of his death a few days ago. Shame on me. You know why? Because what he said in that speech is IT. Those words, so very powerful in the moment, faded. We moved on with our lives…. and so did he until he couldn’t any longer.
We are incredibly lucky to live in a world FULL of second chances.
Now his words are everywhere – Pinterest and Facebook and Instagram – powerful words spoken by a powerful man 6 months ago. We resurrected his spirit – AWESOME! Let’s not let that spirit fade again.
This is my favorite image from the many I have seen. First it gives the WHOLE quote, which is important, and it also shows what is in his heart, even MORE important.
Do you see what is written on his arms? Look closely. 2 things.
- Kicking Cancer’s Ass
- Making a Difference
Kicking Cancer’s Ass. Yes, sir, you sure did. Every damn day that it did not control your mind or your thoughts or your heart.
Making a Difference. Amen brother! Every damn day you turned your focus on others it was unable to control your mind or your thoughts or your heart.
Playing teacher now….
Read his quote. The whole quote. Now what if we changed the word cancer to whatever you have in your heart that is the sludge, the regret, the guilt, the boredom, the FEAR? Make this quote yours. Not an easy thing to do, I know. It’s hard to look in that dark place. It hurts. You might cry or feel overwhelmed. Boy, I hope you do because it is the only way to see that truth. I am going to crack open that dark place of mine for you….
When I die, it will not mean that I lost any part of my life to the anxiety of being a caregiver to a husband with cancer. I beat my anxiety by the way I lived, why I lived and how I lived. So I am going to live. Live! I am going to fight like hell. When I get tired, I will lay down and rest and I will let someone else fight for me.
Can you do it? Can you now write it down? (oooh, that makes it even harder) Can you write it down and save it somewhere? (harder still) Can you say it out loud to someone else? (ouch! stop!)
I look around and see SO much more that I want to do. Right now I can fight, and I can fight like hell.
I cannot even begin to list all the reasons why I can do this, want to do this and I should do it…..but they are the same reasons as you I suspect…. privilege, education, intelligence, privilege, talent, confidence, privilege……
My challenge for us this year is to never again forget the words of this man, and other men and women, that speak directly to our souls. Words are the most powerful tool we have to change, to grow, to inspire, to heal, to nurture. And when those words are backed by sincerity and energy and action – holy shit we might just be able to change the world.
Now THAT is a New Year’s post!
(By the way I MUST say thank you to one of my inner circle peeps – Anne S. – for basically calling me out last night. She told me she was waiting to see what I had to say about 2015 (good LORD the pressure). I told her my heart wasn’t really in that post at all. Her response “Yeah, I know. I could tell.” Ka POW!)